29 years!

It was 29 years ago today that my life changed forever. I was 20 years old when I gave birth to the most beautiful blond headed, blue eyed boy I had ever seen. 8 lbs 2 ozs. Soon as I saw him I thought he looked just like my daddy. He stole my heart then and he's never given it back. I often give out the disclaimer that I was just a kid doing something I had no idea how to do and how sorry I feel for the firstborn children. They should get something extra left for them in the will...I'll give that one some thought.

We grew up together that's for sure. When I look back, I realize he taught me what is really important in life. Now I'm taking it to heart with his babies. I'm crying now. Knew I would. The feelings I felt that night have never been matched. There is just something about that firstborn, the realization of your responsibility and what you have just embarked upon. Knowing while you hold him in that bed and stare out the hospital window at the cold, dark night with a gentlw snow falling, that your life is forever changed and you have just been given the greatest gift. I prayed a lot that night. Knowing without God's help I was never going to pull this one off.

It seems like yesterday...truly. You were the greatest kid, Landon. I know I talk about the challenges you gave me, but that is exactly what you did...you challenged me. Challenged me to be a better mama and a better person. To see the world through your eyes. What fun we had.

It was truly the beginning of the greatest thing I have ever done. Motherhood.

Happy Birthday my sweet, sweet baby boy...

Mama loves you so much...

but fyi this is it, I'm just to young to have a 30 year old, you're gonna have to start lying about your age! xxooxx